My week so far

Taken after my birthday dinner in Marche, The Curve.

I just thought it was a really pretty sight, among all the chaos that surrounded it. The ambience felt very Italian, aside from the Big Apple shop in the background, which just ruins the picture.

I'm trying really hard to find time to blog, but A-Levels are so near, that it feels guilty to even be online, let alone spare half an hour here. I'm trying to juggle between being a student, person, and blogger, but at most times, and with how hectic life in KY can be, I'm usually only allowed to fit into two of those categories at any one moment.

Besides, I really have nothing to talk about nowadays.

Pathetic.

I haven't actually deactivated my Fb account, because I am that lacking of self-discipline. At least the FB app on my phone is gone, so that's a step, albeit a REALLY small one. *pats shoulders

I find myself fiddling around with my phone at a constant rate when I'm bored in my chalet room, and every time Twitter becomes boring( highly unlikely), I move on to FB, just to find out it's not there anymore. and every time that happens, I keep telling myself, "Light at the end of the tunnel, light at the end of the tunnel"

The hardship I go through just to study. Hahaha.

*Moves on to 9gag*

18 --> 19

Just spending a late evening in the chalet in front of the laptop trying to carve out a blog post worthy of the final day of me being 18.

Damn, Kenny Sia has his work cut out for him every time his birthday comes along. I was thinking of, maybe, i could list down 18 amazing things I've done when I was 18, but I can hardly even note down 4, let alone any double figures. And I thought that would be a bit too cliche and imitation is not always the best form of flattery, when it comes to anything and everything, social networking.

So, let's see how shall I mark the end of a momentous year- And, it has been such a great year- and turn 19 with a bang?I guess I'll just bore you by listing down from A-Z of how *today went.

*Today- The last day of my childhood. LOL just kidding. I'm always a child at heart.

6.50-Woke up feeling really great, thanks to the amazing sleep I had the night before, and God's awesomness for letting rain pour down in KYUEM, making it 150% more conducive to sleep. Ate breakfast. Feeling blessed.

8.30- Maths class. Felt really productive, and actually started doing voluntary maths exercise( That's just pretty spectacularly amazing, for my standards) Got back a Maths paper, which wasn't really up to par, but at that time, there were so many limitations so I couldn't really perform well for it, so be gone with that. At least I'm persevering.

3.00- Had a Chemistry class. Did a few experiments. Carried out a test to create an Ester. And found out that it was an Ester for Root beer. The entire class was just so happy and child-like. :)

4.15-6.00- Had a brief meeting with Pn. Su, whom we all haven't met for quite some time. She gave us really good advice, and reminds all of us about our goals and aspirations. After it ended, I felt so determined to work even harder than I am doing now, and to always keep myself on the right path, with the perfect balance.

Motivation: Restored

Level: Asian

(I'm going to deactivate my Facebook a few days after I turn 19, because I think the minutes hours I spend on it can be more beneficial if I read my books. Don't worry, only for the time being; Just until I complete my AS Level examinations.)

You see, this is just a day in my life, be it here in KYUEM, or at home, or anywhere else I may be. No, I don't always have good days, heck, I have had some rough patches along the way, but if you can try and disregard a bad day as an excuse to have a miserable life, then you'll always be happy.

And that's what I try to do. And more often than not, it has helped me to be a better person. Less negativity, less of all that toxic energy. And now that I just have a few more hours before I start living my last year as a teenager, I believe it's safe to say that I can sum up the entire of last year in just one word:

..To have a god that I can still look up to in times of need and despair

..To have a great family which is my primary support system and want nothing but the best for me.

.. To be a part of a scholarship program that has allowed me to achieve dreams, in more ways than one.

..To still remain close with old kindergarten and high school friends, and able to make new and lasting ones.

..To actually believe I can reach anything I set my mind to.

And the list goes on and on, because life, as we know it, is a bundle of blessed opportunities. And I plan to make the most of my year as a 19 year old( Wow, that sounds really weird and awfully old haha).

But for now, there's exactly about 2 more hours to go, But I'm going offline soon, since god knows, the Chemistry and Physics home works aren't going to solve their own questions. And I can't comprehend being scolded by my lecturers as an idea of a 'brand new beginning'. Heh.

I am turning 19 y'all :)

Alhamdulillah.

Clueless

If it was up to me, that would really be the best way to describe it, really. I don't see it as a curse that it's already the 2nd month of the year, but it is hardly something to be extremely joyful over. Figures, the AS exam( I'll spare you an explanation on that) is in May, which is frightening, and undoubtedly why I only blogged once in January. God hopes I see through that this trend ends. I'm on a long weekend break starting today, and will only be going back to college on Tuesday, so let's celebrate that whilst we're at it, huh? :)

College started about a month ago, and as the first week commenced, I found myself joining a Robotics competition organised by University of Bath, which if you know me well, is like an anorexic joining Mr. heavyweight, because I knew zilch about anything Robotics, mechanics etc. I never even really enjoyed Transformers, so what the heck was I doing there?

It was something different. And different is always good, right?

They gave a short briefing prior to the competition, and you should've seen my face. I felt so lost with all the programming that they so easily describe as if it was A, B, C for them. Worst part was, seeing my teammates so engrossed, and full of confidence that they knew A-Z what the Bath officials were explaining. What did I do? well, I can make a really mean " Oh, yes I totally understand every word you're saying" face, so I just played along. Hey, it worked! :D

There were about 7-10 teams( Sorry for the lack of pictures, I got caught up with the competition, obviously) and my team actually placed 2nd, which was quite unexpected, seeing how we only had 2 1/2 brains working for our team. :D But, my theory still remains that we could have gotten 1st place, if it wasn't for the slow reaction to the timer, hence losing by 1/10th off a second. But hey, you win some and you lose some.

You start to realize that we were all a bunch of nerd when the 1st place winners( who aptly named their team as Foord's Focus, obviously to suck up to my Physics teacher, Dr. Foord of course. mehehe) won a, get this..

..Voltmeter.

But, everyone else got a consolation prize, which I think was so much cooler.

But, I think the best part about joining the competition, was really realising, like an "aha!" moment, how much this field in engineering is not what I'm meant to do. I had a blast entering the competition( Watching my teammate fall on the robotics track made my day instantly) but I can't see myself doing this for my entire lifetime. I'm now more certain than I've ever before with what I'm meant to do. But i will never settle.

".. But it is possible that you dislike a thing that is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you.But Allah knows, and you know not." (Al-baqarah 2:16)